‚Reorder Reality‘ – In Remembrance Of Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson

Sleazy is taking a nap. B/W

Sleazy is taking a nap.

[Update 2013|11: My track Reorder Reality is part of the MuteResponse double compilation download album. You can purchase the album via Bandcamp]

The sudden death of Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson was a real shock to me. I had to face the situation to live in a world where his spirit desperately will be missed. In other words I have to reorder my reality. This sounds as if me and him were befriended, but we were not. His music was a part of my life for the last 30 years. Many songs where he was involved touched me so deeply as nearly no other music ever did. So I spend many hours of my life with him around somehow.

Pregnant or not? Sleazy making fun in subway

Peter Sleazy Christopherson in a subway. I took this photo from the website

It all starts when my sister ‚Nancy Preg‘ who’s four years my elder came home with the ’20 Jazz Funk Greats‘ Album by ‚Throbbing Gristle‘. A very disappointed Jazz enthusiast gave it to her with the words ‚This is no Jazz at all!‘. From that day on my sister came home after school and played the whole album without failure on a daily basis. Wow, we were not alone, some people somewhere out there had the same feelings like us.
Unfortunately I missed a concert of TG in the early years. After TG split my first concert was a show of ‚Chris & Cosey‘ when I was 16 years old. After the concert I took my courage in both hands and asked ‚Cosey‘ for an autograph which she gave me with a friendly smile written on my concert ticket

Peter Sleazy Christopherson wearing a Ableton Live Hoodie

Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson wearing a ‚Ableton Live‘ Hoodie. I have a Hoodie like this. too. I took this photo from ‘Chris Carters’ side on flickr.

We followed every single release of all original members of TG up to date, so ‚Sleazy‘ was around permanently. You can imagine how happy I was when TG reunited around 2004. At new years eve 2005 / 2006 they made a three day event at the theatre ‚Volksbühne‘ in Berlin. Certainly we took the chance to get one of the events so called ‚Übertickets‘ which included a Meet and Greet with all members of TG.

Hardcore Fans of Throbbing Gristle at a Meet And Greet

Me at a Meet And Greet with Throbbing Gristle in Berlin at theater Volksbühne, New Year’s Eve 2005 | 2006 – From left to right, Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson, Genesis Breyer P-Orridge, Chris Carter & Cosey Fanni Tutti

This was the first and only occasion I met ‚Sleazy‘ and the other members of TG in person. The event took place in the canteen of the ‚Volksbühne‘. While ‚Cosey‘ was very disappointed by the food I had a brief conversation with ‚Chris‘ about some technical aspects of music production.

Seems she don't like her Food, Cosey Fanni Tutti of Throbbing Gristle

A friend of mine took this funny picture of ‘Cosey’ with her dinner at the Throbbing Gristle Meet and Greet.

I was to shy to talk to ‚Sleazy‘ because I felt in love immediately. It was one of the very rare opportunities in my life in which I had romantic feelings for a man. I am bisexual and my interests in man are normally of more sexual nature. But ‚Sleazys‘ aura obviously evokes more than that. My sister still insist on watching ‚Sleazy‘ talking to me about the film ‚In the Shadow of the Sun‘ by ‚Derek Jarman‘ to which they made a Live Session while screening at ‚Volksbühne‘. I can’t remember that clearly, surely I was too confused because of the butterflies in my tummy. After this experience ‚Sleazys‘ music gets an additional aspect for me which made it even more intensive.

Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson scattering the ashes @ Sattahip

‚Pacman‘ kept us informed about ‚Sleazys‘ funeral ceremony via ‚Twitter‘. There were some pics and a Video posted on ‚YouTube‘ named „Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson scattering the ashes @ Sattahip“. I took the soundtrack from this video and put parts of it into the song ‚Reorder Reality‘.

After soundcheck, Peter Sleazy Christopherson

Peter Sleazy Christopherson with Live Gear. Photo from ‘Chris Carters’ side on flickr.

The choice of my artist name ‚Thee Balancer‘ had nothing to do with ‚Sleazys‘ long time partner. I gave that name to me before I was aware of the fact that the singer of ‚Coil‘ was called ‚John Balance‘. The term ‚Balancer‘ firstly arises from my point of view that the mixing board is the most important musical instrument for me. With the mixer you balance your music and I don’t mean just the panning. I am characterized by jamaican Dub mixing traditions. ‚Lee „Scratch“ Perry‘ used the term ‚Balancer‘ in some of his typically mutterings. Secondly one can call me a person who is always keen on a balanced surrounding. I like it smooth and calm and I avoid to waste my time with arguments.

I was proud recievingthis Tweet of Cosey Fanni Tutti

Cosey Fanni Tutti send this Tweet to me after listening to ‚Reorder Reality‘

Please apologize my english as I am no native speaker.

พิธีลอยอังคารและอัฐิ ของ Peter Christopherson

Peter Christophersons funeral ceremony took place at Sattahip, December 5, 2010


  1. […] From 17 June to 24 July 2016, a new Berlin gallery LUDWIG hosts an exhibition entitled “CHAOSTROPHY” that consists of artworks inspired by music and history of the band Coil. Curator Ceven Knowles asked me to perform my track “Reorder Reality” which I made in remembrance of Peter “Sleazy” Christopherson.  […]

  2. […] am proud to announce that I am part of the “MuteResponse” project. My track “Reorder Reality” which I produced in remembrance of Peter “Sleazy” Christopherson found its way on this double […]

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