The sudden death of Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson was a real shock to me. I had to face the situation to live in a world where his spirit desperately will be missed. In other words I have to reorder my reality. This sounds as if me and him were befriended, but we were not. His music was a part of my life for the last 30 years. Many songs where he was involved touched me so deeply as nearly no other music ever did. So I spend many hours of my life with him around somehow.
It all starts when my sister ‚Nancy Preg‘ who’s four years my elder came home with the ’20 Jazz Funk Greats‘ Album by ‚Throbbing Gristle‘. A very disappointed Jazz enthusiast gave it to her with the words ‚This is no Jazz at all!‘. From that day on my sister came home after school and played the whole album without failure on a daily basis. Wow, we were not alone, some people somewhere out there had the same feelings like us.
Unfortunately I missed a concert of TG in the early years. After TG split my first concert was a show of ‚Chris & Cosey‘ when I was 16 years old. After the concert I took my courage in both hands and asked ‚Cosey‘ for an autograph which she gave me with a friendly smile written on my concert ticket
We followed every single release of all original members of TG up to date, so ‚Sleazy‘ was around permanently. You can imagine how happy I was when TG reunited around 2004. At new years eve 2005 / 2006 they made a three day event at the theatre ‚Volksbühne‘ in Berlin. Certainly we took the chance to get one of the events so called ‚Übertickets‘ which included a Meet and Greet with all members of TG.
This was the first and only occasion I met ‚Sleazy‘ and the other members of TG in person. The event took place in the canteen of the ‚Volksbühne‘. While ‚Cosey‘ was very disappointed by the food I had a brief conversation with ‚Chris‘ about some technical aspects of music production.
I was to shy to talk to ‚Sleazy‘ because I felt in love immediately. It was one of the very rare opportunities in my life in which I had romantic feelings for a man. I am bisexual and my interests in man are normally of more sexual nature. But ‚Sleazys‘ aura obviously evokes more than that. My sister still insist on watching ‚Sleazy‘ talking to me about the film ‚In the Shadow of the Sun‘ by ‚Derek Jarman‘ to which they made a Live Session while screening at ‚Volksbühne‘. I can’t remember that clearly, surely I was too confused because of the butterflies in my tummy. After this experience ‚Sleazys‘ music gets an additional aspect for me which made it even more intensive.
‚Pacman‘ kept us informed about ‚Sleazys‘ funeral ceremony via ‚Twitter‘. There were some pics and a Video posted on ‚YouTube‘ named „Peter ‚Sleazy‘ Christopherson scattering the ashes @ Sattahip“. I took the soundtrack from this video and put parts of it into the song ‚Reorder Reality‘.
The choice of my artist name ‚Thee Balancer‘ had nothing to do with ‚Sleazys‘ long time partner. I gave that name to me before I was aware of the fact that the singer of ‚Coil‘ was called ‚John Balance‘. The term ‚Balancer‘ firstly arises from my point of view that the mixing board is the most important musical instrument for me. With the mixer you balance your music and I don’t mean just the panning. I am characterized by jamaican Dub mixing traditions. ‚Lee „Scratch“ Perry‘ used the term ‚Balancer‘ in some of his typically mutterings. Secondly one can call me a person who is always keen on a balanced surrounding. I like it smooth and calm and I avoid to waste my time with arguments.
Please apologize my english as I am no native speaker.